Monday, August 31, 2009

Blue

I find it odd that my favorite color, the color that brightens up the sky, the color that compliments so many other colors, is also the color that describes the saddest feeling- Blue.
Today is a blue day. And it's not blue because the sky is a bright sunny blue. It's blue because today's the day I leave the apt. I have shared with the person I thought I would grow old with. Today is an end. It's been 6 weeks so you'd think by now it would already feel like it has ended, but that's not the case. When it all started, my husband, soon-to-be-ex-husband, had left to stay with his brother. It took a few days to adjust to it, to fall asleep alone, to wake up to an empty bed, to get used to the quiet in the house. But a few days in to it, and I got used to it. It was tolerable. And then about a week ago he returned to the pad. The hard part of it all, is that we got along amazingly good, which took me a few steps back in the healing process, in the acceptance process. How can I accept it is over when things are so good...
But today it is really the end. The physical end anyways. There's still the official business of getting the divorce done, but that aside, tonight it ends. Tonight my address changes, the bed I will sleep in is different, and he will not be by my side.
And maybe tomorrow or the next day blue will be the dominant color of my mood, but I know in time the rest of the colors of the rainbow of life will start to take affect, because I know there are happier times ahead!

Saturday, August 29, 2009

Weekend Favorites- Kitchen Stuff

I'm not going to lie. I am not having a good weekend. I am having an emotionally hard weekend.
I have started today the painful task of packing up my belongings from the apt. I shared with my husband. Soon to be ex-husband. Soon to be my ex-apartment. And even though I tried to remain calm and collected, I couldn't help the emotions that started surfacing throughout this process. I found our wedding album (sigh), and then I found some photos of us at times of happiness & love (big sigh), and then after clearing and packing most of my stuff from the kitchen & living room, I looked around me, at the half empty, boxed up apt. and then it just came. I couldn't stop the tears.
But, life needs to go on, I just have to focus on what's next and stop dwelling on what I'm losing, or rather, what I have already lost. Which brought me back to my devoted friend, my computer, and to my devoted blog readers, and I've decided to keep on going.
Since most of my packing today was in the kitchen, one of my favorite rooms in a house, I've decided to stroll around Etsy and find things for the kitchen that I would love to have. I found a whole load of stuff I would gladly buy, but as you know, my favorites sections only contain 12 of the best.
Check these items out, and look at the rest of the stuff they have in these 12 wonderful shops.
Hope your weekend is a happy one.

3. Knotty Knotty- Artisan Bread Board
6. Knock Knocking- Hostess Yarn Wreath
8. Koide Studio- Haniwa Cup
9. Village Clayworks- Pinwheel Nesting Bowls
10. Utile Mud- Honey Pot
11. Cynthia Vardhan Ceramics- Decorative dish
12. JclayPottery- Eat ice cream for 2

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

A Bloggers Giving Game

I have a little game I'd like to play. Let's call it "A Blogger's Giving Game"
The rules of the game are fairly simple. I am the first and last in this chain of givers. Everyone who comments on this post becomes a link in the chain. All links are both givers & receivers.
The first person to comment will receive something from my shop in the mail. Then that person will check to see who posted the next comment, and will send them something from their shop, and so on. The last person to comment will send something to me. The last person is basically the person that within 24 hours of their comment, there has been no other comments posted.
You don't have to have a shop to be part of the giving chain. You can make something instead. It must be something hand made, of your own, not something you got somewhere else.
Oh, and you cannot request what to get, & you can't tell the person your giving something what it will be. It's all about getting that unexpected piece of mail, with a surprise inside....
When you receive your "thing" in the mail, email me an image of it, and the name of the person who sent it to you. In the end, I will post a collage of everything. (I think I'll create a "giving tree"...)
Remember, in your comment you must provide your email address, so the person who's going to send you something can email you to request your mailing address :)
Lets see how long this giving chain gets...

Let the giving begin!!

Monday, August 24, 2009

Camera, Family, Friends, & Cats- Fun Weekend

This past weekend has been one of the best weekends in a long time. It started off on Friday morning, when I had a convo on my Etsy account, from a potential client, asking for a custom print. After such a long sales drought I have to say I was thrilled to receive that convo. While I enjoy displaying my art on Etsy, and receiving comments and "hearts" and such, the whole point was to sell...
Anyways, I continued on with these good vibes, and decided that was the right time to finally get the camera and lens I've been dieing to get for the past year (ok, past YEARS). See, even when you know you need something, when money is the issue, it's not so easy to go and get it... But on Friday I finally did! 
I'm sure you're all curious as to what I got... Well, being a Canon girl, I stuck with what I love, and I got the Canon D50 body, along with (...drum roll...) the 24-70mm L series USM f2.8 lens (!!) I get chills of excitement all over just from writing the details of that lens :)
The rest of Friday was spent with family & friends, and I then I continued the F&F fun the next morning. I had brunch with a good friend, who's an armature photographer. We were at a restaurant called Benedict, which is a hip place, in a hip spot, in Tel Aviv. This is what we ate. Pictures courtesy of my friend, Tali Gonen. (Yes, she's called Tali too...). Tali was smart enough to bring her camera along with her...
After brunch I headed outside of Tel Aviv to visit my mom-in-law, along with my own mom (even though my husband & I are getting divorced, his mom will always remain my mom-in-law in my eyes, and hers). This time I had my camera at hand, as I had plans on trying to capture on camera a few of her many cats... I did manage to get a few great poses from the bunch, and believe me that wasn't easy, as they are all such scaredy cats, and run away & hide as soon as you come near...


All in all this was a good weekend! And to conclude it, by Saturday afternoon that potential client has completed her purchase, and my sales went up by one more :)

Saturday, August 22, 2009

Weekend Favorites- Summer Cloths

I have a had a love affair with cloths from a very young age! It came around the same time I could dress myself, and chose what I would wear without Mommy's help.
I'd say over the years this love affair has evolved into a full on Love-Hate relationship. That all started when I realized the value of money, and that nothing comes free, and that (surprise surprise) money DOES NOT grow on trees! Oh what a wonderful world of endless closets full of cloths it could be, if only I found that money tree.
But seriously now, I am not a shopaholic by any means, and I do not go on ravishing shopping sprees. When I buy clothing I usually buy an item or two, after carefully choosing them.
This weeks 12 favorites are all items of summer. If I could I'd buy each one! These are all in the line of what I'd wear. Can you try and pin point my clothing style...?
Check them out, there's more greatness in their sellers shops ;)
1. Little Ocean- Smantha Skirt
2. Sarahseven- Peachy Kean Dress
3. NeeNee Clothing- Safari Dress
4. Miss Brache- Cruise Shorts
6. Necessity is the mother of sweet Lovin- Trapeze shirt
8. Soho Made- Tea Dress
10. Replicca-Think Tank
11. Pretty Raccoon Clothing- Necklace Print Flutter Sleeve Top
12. Lirola- Fiorello Top
This dress was purchased on Etsy from Heirloom and it was my first clothing purchase (and only one thus far). I was worried about buying cloths on Etsy, but after this purchase I think I can say it's pretty good :)

The model on the left is from Heirloom. The one on the right... That's me showing it off ;)

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Forever In My Life

This one is for you- Andrew!

I'm sure you all have a person or two that have crossed your path of life way back when, that have had an influence, or an affect on your life, that were a positive ray of light and in a way, still are.
I do. There are a few, but as the line above says, I am here talking about Andrew.
I met Andrew years ago when I was living in LA. He was a friend of a friend, and they actually lived in neighbouring buildings. He had come from Chicago to LA a few years prior, to try his luck at the music industry. We met by fluke one day, when I came by our friends' place to return something. Our friend wasn't there, but Andrew was... And he was charming and intriguing, and persistent. He asked for my number, but I didn't give it so easily. Instead I told him to find our friend and ask him for my number... I of course waited that whole evening for a call that never came... I did find out later he was so crushed when he couldn't find our friend, and therefore couldn't call me...
Luckily, a few days later our friend was celebrating his birthday, and he called to invite me for early drinks with a couple of his friends... Guess who was there... Andrew. From that point on he was sticking to me like glue, and by the end of the night, I couldn't resist his (honest) charms. I soon found out he was just what I needed- a kind, warm hearted guy, who wanted nothing but my company!
The sad thing about it all though, was that we met at the worst time ever! Andrew by then had come to the end of his road in LA, and he was home bound to Chicago merely 4 days later. So we made the most out of those 4 days, and in the end we said (a teary) goodbye... Till a week later
Andrew had planned to stop in San Francisco on his way to Chicago to visit with some friends. When he arrived in SF he knew he wanted to spend more time with me, and so a week after we parted our ways, he came knocking on my door, and we had another wonderful week together... and then goodbye came once more.
Andrew went back home, and a couple of months later I came for a week's visit to Chicago. It was great to see him again, and be able to spend more time around him... but again, in the end, we had to say goodbye.
That week in Chicago was the last time I had seen Andrew in person, and this was about 6 years ago. But throughout this whole time, no matter where life took me (LA, Canada, Israel) or him (Kossavo, NY, Chicago), and no matter how many relationships we each had since, he has always been there in my life, as was I, from afar. I know that no matter what or who puts me down, I can call upon Andrew to lift me back up again. He has always known what words to say, what songs to play (or sing), and what jokes to tell.
Now that I am going through yet another bump in my road, it was no surprise to have Andrew by my (cyber) side, for a good cheer-me-up conversation, a good laugh, and as needed, a few good compliments to get the ego boost back up ;)
Andrew, you are always in my heart!

These three images were taken that week we spent together in LA (circa 2003)

A photo I took of Andrew during my visit to Chicago
If you have your own "Andrew" tell me about him/her :)

Sunday, August 16, 2009

I FOUND A HOME


After a long search all over the city of Tel Aviv, I am pleased to say to all you sceptics out there (that would be ME) who didn't believe this day would come, that I have found my next heaven!
It's not quite the shack Mr. Scarecrow has, but it'll do... It's in one of the nicer neighbourhoods of Tel Aviv, on a tree lined boulevard, close to one of the coolest shopping, hanging-out areas in the city. Move day is approaching real soon- Sept. 1st, so expect pictures of the new pad to follow ;)
Ain't nothing like home!!

Saturday, August 15, 2009

Weekend Favorites- Furniture

Since all that occupies me these days is the search for a new home, I thought it is only appropriate to focus my favorites on to a related subject- furniture.
I love unique, multi functioning items. Furniture pieces that you don't see in every home you go to (sorry Ikea, as much as I love you, it's definitely not unique...). Items that you spend more than a glance looking at. With these thoughts in mind, I have created today's collection of 12 unique, interesting, beautiful pieces. Check out their makers stores for more uniqueness and beauty!


2. Flat Patterns LLC- Eiffel Coffee Table
3. KALA Studio- Phila Chair
4. Delia- Steel Panel Bed
5. Michael Arras- Circles Table
6. Henry Levine Design- Pedestal Night Tables
7. Industrial Spot- Box Life Book Cabinet
8. Scot Bailey Design- Cut.Glue.Table
9. Galahad Dumfries- Dundee Dark Coffee Table
10. hrvojeVulama- Chairs Simple 2009
11. Wook Woodworking- Bamboo Hive Cabinet
12. HarBenger2- Cart Chair

Thursday, August 13, 2009

Where My Head Is At...

I've been trying so hard to think about something to write on here, but couldn't come up with anything. I've started about 3 or 4 different posts, but have deleted each of them about half way through writing them. They seemed pointless, and meaningless, with a content or subject that was way too far from where my head space is at right now...
I am so occupied these days with the hectic search for an apt. that my head feels so heavy and big! It literally feels like a balloon that's filled a tad bit too much that it's about to explode.
I'm sure you've all been there before, facing the task of finding your next home. It is stressful as it is, but adding the fact that with every day that passes that I don't find an apt. my time is running out is quite scary!
So it's all I think about...

Monday, August 10, 2009

Ingrid says it best

I have discovered Ingrid Michaelson a few years back at the end of a very emotional "Gray's Anatomy" episode. The song was Keep Breathing and it left a huge impression in my mind and in my heart, and I could relate. I of course became a HUGE fan, and started listening to all her songs, reading carefully each word in her lyrics sheets, soaking in and absorbing the emotions that came out of the written words, and then her echoing voice from her CD's.

When we were nearing our wedding, just a little less than a year ago, we were faced with the task of finding THE song for our first dance as a Mr. & Mrs. and we both knew that Ingrid was the answer. It was The Way I Am that seamed most fitting to us, as we both believed we loved each other just the way we are...
Even though it's been a few weeks now since the decision to divorce has been decided, today's events, which for now I shall keep to myself, have brought me to a point that it is only now completely over, and today is the first day of my new path.
Ironically, or appropriately, you decide, I found just the right words in Ingrid's lyrics

Starting Now (click to hear the song)

I want to crawl back inside my mother's womb
I want to shut out all the lights in this room
I want to start fresh, like a baby in a sink
Scrub away all these thoughts that i think of you

So life moves slowly when you're waiting for it to boil
Feel like i watch from 6 feet under the soil
Still want to hold you and kiss behind your ears
But i re count the countless tears that i lost for you

But before you finally go there's one thing you should know: That I promise -

Starting now I'll never know your name
Starting now I'll never feel the same
Starting now I wish you never came into my world.

I want to crawl back inside my bed of sin
I want to burn the sheets that smell like your skin
Instead I'll wash them just like kitchen rags with stains
Spinning away every piece that remains of you.

But before you finally go there's one thing you should know: That I promise -

Starting now I'll never know your name
Starting now I'll never feel the same
Starting now I wish you never came into my world.

It's my world, it's not ours anymore
It's my world, it's not ours anymore

Saturday, August 08, 2009

On my way forward

On a random web search I happen to come across an old children's book I haven't read since I was 5. "Oh The Places You'll Go" was one of my favorite reads by Dr. Seuss, and I think it couldn't have been more appropriate for me today.
We all go through life experiencing ups and downs. We have good moments and bad ones. There are many bumps in this road, some easier to hop over than others, some could even be frustrating and confusing that we forget where we were heading. The secret is how you move on, how you find the way to hop over every obstacle, how you readjust your road map when you are being re-routed. It's not always easy, I speak from experience, but no one handed us an "easy pass through life" ticket along with the toosh slapping and the cord cutting at that first day we had on earth...
So as I tackle through my own personal road bump, I know it wouldn't take too long before I am back on that path. I know I have so many more places to go, goals to achieve, and great happiness to find! This is just a bump, a big one, yet still a bump, in a very long road of life!
To those of you who have never seen or read this book, here it is out load on YouTube

Tuesday, August 04, 2009

Six Things About Me

I have been "Tagged". I am now a link in a blog chain. My tagger is my cyber friend and fellow blogger The Lost Earring
According to the rules I am supposed to post the rules...
so here they are :)
1. Link to the person or persons who tagged you
2. Post the rules on your blog
3. Write six random and/or revealing things about yourself
4. Tag six people at the end of your post and link to their blogs
5. Let each person know they've been tagged & leave a comment on their blog
6. Let the tagger know when your post has been published
So shall we begin....?
First
I LOVE ice cream! I love it all year long. I don't care how cold it is outside I can eat ice cream while freezing my ass off, and shaking all over.
Second
I have a stupid fear of the ocean... I am so afraid to drown that I forget how to swim and start panicking. In fact, I will reveal here that while travelling to the Galapagos Islands I took a 7 day boat trip that involved a lot of mid-ocean snorkeling. On the first day I was so scared to hop off the dingy in the middle of the ocean (no land in sight) that for the rest of that week I snorkeled with a life-vest on me (True & very shameful story!). I am slowly overcoming this fear, but it's baby steps :)
Third
When I was a little kid and was asked what would I like to be when I grow up I used to say "A house cleaner" (!!)
Fourth
In the first grade I asked the hottest guy in class if he wanted to be my boyfriend (because his dad told me to do so) and he said NO
Fifth
I think I could be a great actress cause I can make myself cry on cue :)
Sixth
I get my good energies from Daisies, the sea, the sun, good friends, great laugh, and a hug from mom

There. I've told you my six. Now it's these bloggers' turn:
Erin Handley - Pink Peony
Joy White - Pure Joy
Stephanie - Pretty {much} Art

Enjoy!

Monday, August 03, 2009

Weekend Favorites- Photos / Photographers

During my photography studies I have been privileged to have learned from some great masters of the field. My professors were all talented in what they did, and dedicated to pass their knowledge and tricks of the trade to their hungry students. The advise and words of wisdom they have given us over the years have stuck with me all along.
One of my professors had once said that for one to become a great photographer, they need to learn to look at other photographers and appreciate others' work. Each photographer views the world differently and therefor uses the camera to convey that view in their own unique way.
This week I have dedicated my "favorites" focus to 12 great photographers I have come across on Etsy. They each have their own style, use their choice of camera & lens, and portray a world that is the world they see. These are my favorite photographs from their works:

1. Tim Irving - Carousel
2. Sarka Trager - Curious Dog
3. Lana Dashevsky - Small World
4. Holga Jen - Memories
5. Photo Valle - Dreams
6. SoloAperture - Old Rusty Plymouth
7. Nutmeg Clicks - Sight
8. Erin Tyner - Fade
9. Marco La Grenouille - Papaver- Mixed media work
10. Laura Evans Photography - Solitude
11. Andrea Despot - I've Been Framed

Sunday, August 02, 2009

Matters of the Heart

I haven't written anything too personal in a while. It wasn't because I had nothing to say or share, but because my personal life has undergone some hard shake-ups.
Those of you devoted blog followers have read my post from last month about how my husband and I re-met each other just a little under 1.5 years ago, and how we fell in love and got married so fast... well, with all the love we had, and all the care we had and still have for each other, our marriage has come to an end.
This wasn't an easy decision to make, and it wasn't something neither of us has taken lightly, but I admit it was quite devastating for me, and still is, and I am now left with the task of piecing back the pieces, and mending my heart, to better myself and my life. I know I am strong enough to come out of this with my head and hopes up high.
I am surrounded by great friends both in my real world, and my cyber world, and in the past 2 weeks I have felt such great love and support from all of them.
I am still a big believer in love, and fairytales, and even though at the moment the sun doesn't seem to shine on the right side of my world, I know eventually it will!
And my life is still imperfectly perfect!

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